1. Dinner with daddy - having him tell me how good I look, how happy.
2. Conversations with mom - gosh I just love her.
3. Forget-me-nots, I'm still on a spiritual high from this talk. It just sticks with me for some reason.
4. Having my mentor/BYU professor Lynnette come and observe me today. I wanted to impress her so badly and she had such wonderful things to say to me. She's been with me since the beginning, since I started the education program. She talked about how much I've grown and the progress I've made and there is nothing better then having someone tell you how impressed they are with you and how proud they are. love it.
5. Having ash jan call and tell me she wants to come in and watch me teach on friday.
6. Realizing that no matter what happens in my class, I am the adult, I am in charge and things do not have to get to me. I can brush off problems and keep moving.
love,
j
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
the big 5
In education we always talk about the "big 5". This usually refers to the 5 most important things in literacy. Ever since i have been teacing i've been having a hard time staying up to date on my journaling. Not exactly a shocker, but still sad. So whenever I get a chance I want to hopefull post my big 5 for the day.
Today's Big Five so far...
1. My dad is coming tomorrow! what!
2. I was flipping through journals today and I found this lovely.
"My teacher is the best and nicest teacher ive ever had. She lets us read a lot. She gave us journals to write in. She even lets us pick prizes if we win a drawing. She let's us write on her promethean board, she lets us read her books, she even got us our own book marks. I hope my sister will get Miss Webb when she is in fourth grade. If she does she will have the best year of elementary school if she does get her. Once again, my teacher Miss Webb is the best and nicest teacher ive ever had."
This was written by one of my favorites, I know I shouldn't have favorites, but hey I do.
3. A cute girl in my class brought me fall leaves she collected this weekend (aren't they precious)
4. It was pizza day at school! I love pizza.
5. I just have such a good class, they are so cute and so funny. I adore them so much, even when they are driving me crazy. I am so blessed.
Today's Big Five so far...
1. My dad is coming tomorrow! what!
2. I was flipping through journals today and I found this lovely.
"My teacher is the best and nicest teacher ive ever had. She lets us read a lot. She gave us journals to write in. She even lets us pick prizes if we win a drawing. She let's us write on her promethean board, she lets us read her books, she even got us our own book marks. I hope my sister will get Miss Webb when she is in fourth grade. If she does she will have the best year of elementary school if she does get her. Once again, my teacher Miss Webb is the best and nicest teacher ive ever had."
This was written by one of my favorites, I know I shouldn't have favorites, but hey I do.
3. A cute girl in my class brought me fall leaves she collected this weekend (aren't they precious)
4. It was pizza day at school! I love pizza.
5. I just have such a good class, they are so cute and so funny. I adore them so much, even when they are driving me crazy. I am so blessed.
Forget me nots.
I've always loved this little flower and now Elder Uchtdorf gave me a beautiful talk I can always remember when I see them.1. Forget not to be patient with yourself.
2. Forget not the difference between a good sacrifice and a foolish sacrifice.
3. Forget not to be happy NOW
4. Forget not the "Why" of the gospel
5. Forget not that your Heavenly Father loves you
For the full talk, which I highly recommend it is wonderful, click here
Sunday, September 18, 2011
reality.
Here's the thing. Life as a teacher is hard.
Like really hard.
This last month there have been so many moments when I literally felt as if I was drowning.
There was no light anywhere and I didn't think I'd make it through the day let alone the weeks and months I had to go.
I've been working towards this my entire life. I planned my entire college career around this time. This moment. When I could have my own classroom.
When you finally get your dream you think it is going to be perfect and wonderful, and everything you ever dreamed of.
Then sometimes, it's not. The only way I can describe it is to borrow some words from good Mr. Seuss.
OH!
THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!
You'll be on your way up!
You'll be seeing great sights!
You'll join the high fliers
who soar to high heights.
You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed.
You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you'll be the best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.
Except when you don' t
Because, sometimes, you won't.
I'm sorry to say so
but, sadly, it's true
that Hang-ups and bang-ups
can happen to you.
You can get all hung up
in a prickle-ly perch.
And your gang will fly on.
You'll be left in a Lurch.
You'll come down from the Lurch
with an unpleasant bump.
And the chances are, then,
that you'll be in a Slump.
And when you're in a Slump,
you're not in for much fun.
Un-slumping yourself
is not easily done.
When I first started out I assumed I would be great. I assumed this would come as easily to me as it always has, and then things happened. I realized I wasn't as great as I thought I was. I realized I had a beck of a lot to learn. I began to drag and fall. I began to lose confidence in my self and if I could really handle it.
I felt like I was lost and couldn't see anyway out. People would ask me, "are you loving it!" And honestly I'm not sure if I could give them the answer they were looking for.
It's moments like this I'm grateful for the priesthood. I received a blessing from my cousin. It was a blessing of comfort and exactly what I needed. I thought the next day would be magnificent, but guess what it was still hard. But things have been getting better, and Thursday was my best day so far. I left that day remembering why I love teaching. I love that my kids are so dang funny. I love when something just clicks in their heads. I love when a lesson goes somewhere I never planned, but it ends up better then I could ever hope. I love when my kids think I'm funny. I love that they love me sometimes. I love that most of them are so eager to learn. I love when they draw me pictures. I love teaching them everyday. I love when I can bring in things that they love. I love just talking to them, they're hilarious.
Last night I was with Mrs. Dustin and we were catching up since she was visiting from Idaho and I had a realization. It's something I've been slowly realizing, but this was the first time I actually said it out loud to anyone.
Both my blessing from my father and my cousin talk about teaching as a path that I have chosen. I never looked at it that way. I always figured that it chose me. As I look back on my life I realize that this was something that Heavenly Father allowed me to decide on my own. I have full faith that he has backed me on this decision, but this was something that I decided all by myself. So really when I lose it I have no one to blame but me! ha! anyway in all seriousness it was a realization to me that my Heavenly Father trusts me enough to allow me to teach his precious little children. Its a huge weight, but one I am happily bearing. I don't know why he has entrusted me with these special little people, or why their parents trust me with them each day. But all these important people have confidence in me and that is a great reminder to me that I need to have confidence in myself.
I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.
It's my new life mantra.
love,
j
Like really hard.
This last month there have been so many moments when I literally felt as if I was drowning.
There was no light anywhere and I didn't think I'd make it through the day let alone the weeks and months I had to go.
I've been working towards this my entire life. I planned my entire college career around this time. This moment. When I could have my own classroom.
When you finally get your dream you think it is going to be perfect and wonderful, and everything you ever dreamed of.
Then sometimes, it's not. The only way I can describe it is to borrow some words from good Mr. Seuss.
OH!
THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!
You'll be on your way up!
You'll be seeing great sights!
You'll join the high fliers
who soar to high heights.
You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed.
You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you'll be the best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.
Except when you don' t
Because, sometimes, you won't.
I'm sorry to say so
but, sadly, it's true
that Hang-ups and bang-ups
can happen to you.
You can get all hung up
in a prickle-ly perch.
And your gang will fly on.
You'll be left in a Lurch.
You'll come down from the Lurch
with an unpleasant bump.
And the chances are, then,
that you'll be in a Slump.
And when you're in a Slump,
you're not in for much fun.
Un-slumping yourself
is not easily done.
When I first started out I assumed I would be great. I assumed this would come as easily to me as it always has, and then things happened. I realized I wasn't as great as I thought I was. I realized I had a beck of a lot to learn. I began to drag and fall. I began to lose confidence in my self and if I could really handle it.
I felt like I was lost and couldn't see anyway out. People would ask me, "are you loving it!" And honestly I'm not sure if I could give them the answer they were looking for.
It's moments like this I'm grateful for the priesthood. I received a blessing from my cousin. It was a blessing of comfort and exactly what I needed. I thought the next day would be magnificent, but guess what it was still hard. But things have been getting better, and Thursday was my best day so far. I left that day remembering why I love teaching. I love that my kids are so dang funny. I love when something just clicks in their heads. I love when a lesson goes somewhere I never planned, but it ends up better then I could ever hope. I love when my kids think I'm funny. I love that they love me sometimes. I love that most of them are so eager to learn. I love when they draw me pictures. I love teaching them everyday. I love when I can bring in things that they love. I love just talking to them, they're hilarious.
Last night I was with Mrs. Dustin and we were catching up since she was visiting from Idaho and I had a realization. It's something I've been slowly realizing, but this was the first time I actually said it out loud to anyone.
Both my blessing from my father and my cousin talk about teaching as a path that I have chosen. I never looked at it that way. I always figured that it chose me. As I look back on my life I realize that this was something that Heavenly Father allowed me to decide on my own. I have full faith that he has backed me on this decision, but this was something that I decided all by myself. So really when I lose it I have no one to blame but me! ha! anyway in all seriousness it was a realization to me that my Heavenly Father trusts me enough to allow me to teach his precious little children. Its a huge weight, but one I am happily bearing. I don't know why he has entrusted me with these special little people, or why their parents trust me with them each day. But all these important people have confidence in me and that is a great reminder to me that I need to have confidence in myself.
I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.
It's my new life mantra.
love,
j
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