Just Thinking...

So you know those moments when you got back through old pictures, or read old journals and you remember those moments in your life that have past you by? whether they were silly fights, amazing random nights, a special moment with someone who meant everything to you in that moment, but you haven't seen or talked to in forever? As i've been looking back on my life, mostly high school, but i guess this would be applicable to my last year in college, it amazes me how many amazing moments i have been blessed with. amazing friends, the perfect night, conversations that i never wanted to end. its amazing looking back, i have been so blessed. Moments are timeless, most of the best moments in your life you don't realize until they have already passed you by, but sometimes there are moments that come and you realize that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever, you will always remember it as the moment something changed, or something wonderful happened. i think i've had less of these moments as i've gone through my life currently, but i love to reflect on the past and realize how wonderful they were. i'm glad i wrote about them, and have taken too many pictures, because honestly, the best moments you should never regret.

as i looked back on my life, i found two things i wrote that i just love. i wrote them my junior year in high school (we had a project where we had to write poems, and it was my favorite thing i've ever done in school, to write about my inner thoughts and put them on paper in such a unique way was so thereputic for me) and i totally forgot about them till now. i don't normally like to share things i write because usually they are very close to my heart or i get embarrassed, but i figured what the heck, why not share a little of myself :)

For this first one we had to pick an emotion, i chose love, and describe what it would look like, taste like, smell like etc.
Love...
it has the color of a dark sky with white shining stars
it tastes of chapstick and mint gum
it smells of cologne and fresh laundry
it has kind eyes that understand, strong arms to protect you, and hands that fit yours perfectly
it sounds of "i love you" "you're beautiful" and "i'll always be here when you need me"
it feels like goosebumps on your skin, butterflies in your stomach, and a warmth that starts at your toes and fills your entire body
Love.

For this second one, we have to write a poem with the title "These i have loved" we could do anything with it, it just had to fit the title - i loved doing this one because it allowed me to think of my favorite little things in life that often go unnoticed, but make me so happy

"These I Have Loved"

the laughter of little kids and the innocence reflected in their eyes
the smell of Christmas time, and the constant spirit of giving
the feeling after i finish a drawing, knowing how much time and effort i put into it, and that in the end, it was all worth it
the taste of pink jelly beans, and the color they turn my tongue
long conversations with friends that never seem to end
looking at someone, and realizing how much you love them, and feeling their love for you
spending late nights stargazing in the arms of someone who cares
being wrapped in a blanket by a fire with a warm cup of coco in your hands
the feeling of complete happiness that comes when you laugh
the smell of rain and the joy of jumping through puddles
the feeling of piano keys on my fingers and the music i make
these things i have loved, the smells, the sounds, the emotions, and the joys that make life worth living.

Love from provo,

j