2-24-10

Well, its been a couple weeks since i wrote my life lesson blog and i figured it was time to prove i'm doing just fine :) Sure its been hard, and i do have my good and bad days, but moving on and learning from the experience has been refreshing.

life has been crazy busy like usual, i've been throwing myself into school and art which has been good for my soul.

most important: i'm currently sitting in the salt lake city airport cause get this, I'M ON MY WAY HOME! when everything happened a couple weeks ago my momma asked me if i wanted to come home and i said of course! i was going to go home that weekend, but things didn't work out as nicely as they did if i went this weekend. so here i am sitting and waiting and more than overjoyed that i get to see my mommy and daddy in a couple hours. my siblings don't know i'm coming home either so its going to be fun to suprise them :)
i adore my family so much. they are the greatest. i mean they let me escape when i have a life crisis, granted i'm over said crisis cause i've realized i deserve so much better and i will get it one day, but they let me come home anyway!

Things i'm looking forward to:
1. hugs from mom and dad and dude (aka. Blake)
2. playing games with my family
3. being back in danville, i swear it is my favorite place in the entire world
4. resting from life
5. sleeping in my own bed again
6. everything else i can't think of :)

oh so good news, while i'm home i'm meeting this woman who i might nanny for this summer. she has already offered me a great job because she has heard about me from other people and knows my mom, but i would watch her two girls ages 4 and 6 all summer for 40 hours a week and be paid nicely. i'm really excited to meet her and her kids and i'm hoping this will all work out because it would truly be a blessing for me to find a job making the kind of money i need to make for school next year.

time to board!

j

life lesson.

I learned a lesson today.

In life you'll experience heartbreak. People will not treat you the way you deserve, they'll lead you on and hurt your heart, but you know what, life goes on. If you're lucky, like me, you have wonderful friends who love you, and tell you how wonderful you are and how stupid that boy is, and be willing to go kick his butt. Heavenly Father is truly mindful of me through my trials, and i'm so thankful for that knowledges and for music that says the things i'm thinking.
current song on repeat: First Time For Everything, it says a lot of the things i've been thinking
I love music, it says the words i cannot.

I'm standing in the place we met
Heart shakes, and then I sweat
It's so hard to see that it's all over

What did I do to make this end?
And could I really be your friend?
I can barely just pretend it's over

I'm standing in the place we first kissed
There's so much I miss
This I can't resist cause I'm all over
Where we took our first photograph,
And where I first held your hand and laughed
Awkward moments like that have passed, it's over

(bridge)
You're fine and I believe it
I'm something you never needed
I can't say the same for you

(chorus)
But there's a first time for everything
And I'll fall in love again
When I begin my second time around
It's the last time I'll think of you
You can do what you'd like to do
But if you only knew I'm never coming back

I'm standing in the place we first said goodbye
I don't know why, I so relied on you for my smile
I laid happiness in your hands
And I don't really understand
The cost was more than I could stand
It was miles wide

Love from Provo,

J

ugh.

maybe its the winter but i'm:
stressed out. drained. tired. on an emotional roller coaster with too many highs and lows. confused. frustrated. missing my family. but not wanting to change a single moment.
life is insane right now, trying to get everything done while still trying to "have fun and not over think my life" is quite a difficult task.
to sum up: college is hard.
but i'm blessed and i know it.
and i can draw to de-stress, no worries we'll pull through