winding down

7 finals down
1 more to go
started packing up the room.
:(

don't get me wrong i'm excited to go home, but leaving is always hard. my mom and i were talking yesterday and this is what she said to me, "you're halfway done with college". i was stunned to silence for a minute. i've been in school my whole life. twenty years and i've always been in school (well i guess like 16 years of school, those first few years were solely dedicated to playing). in one year i'll be teaching and in my senior year of college and then i will graduate....and get a job...and be like a real life grown-up....that kind of scares me. i've always been a planner and have been one who always worked to achieve my dreams, but my dreams and their benchmarks always were focused on school.
For example:
finish high school with a high GPA: check
get into BYU: check
get into the El Ed program: check
....
what comes next
finish and become a teacher: this one is coming faster then i even realize. my dad always said to me that as he's gotten older the years in his life fly by faster and faster. i'm feeling this the older i get, people come and go, school years (though it doesn't seem like it sometimes) fly by...

now i'm on to my summer adventure: nannying.
i was going to stay spring but then my job started the first week of may. so home i go to move back into my room. for some reason i'm nervous about going home. i want to have fun, to enjoy myself, i didn't really have a lot of fun with friends last summer, i mostly worked and played with my mom. which don't get me wrong, it was wonderful, but i want to enjoy these next four months not just go through the motions. i also know that that will be determined by me and my attitude. i also want to be a better big sister. everytime i see my siblings it amazes my how big they have gotten. they are just growing up so fast and everytime i see them i just want to say "stop that!". Shelby is turning 13 this summer, THIRTEEN! she'll be a teenager! so strange, marissa is now 11 (and acts like a teenager) and my little dude, my baby, he's turning 8 in a few short weeks and getting baptized. i can't even believe how old my little family is getting. i know that i need to take this summer and become a better sister and friend. i've always been tight with my parents, but not so much my siblings. i've always blamed the huge age difference between us, but as they get older and mature that's not much of an excuse.

only four more days left till california sunshine and summertime

love from provo,

j

finals.

art: check
exercise science: check
dance: check

3 down...5 to go...
shouldn't be too bad.
what's the best way to study? go shopping at target and buy a cute new dress and high heels :)

only seven days till california sunshine and summertime.

j